Sigh...and of course, ho hum.

So here I am in ABQ. I've done everything to remain as busy as possible; however, there are just too many hours in the day to kill and although I am doing stuff throughout the hours, I can't help but shake the lonely, depressed feeling that is just kinda creeping inside me.
I miss you Flag people. I miss class where there are people smarter than me (I'm in EMT class now...I"m not bragging....I'm the smartest one in there), I miss friendly faces, I miss the ring of my cell phone (once in 3 days people...once), I miss being able to breathe clean air...damn it's smoggy here. I did catch a beautiful sunset tonight and thought Hey, this place isn't so bad, you grew up here, you've always loved it...but it's damn lonely! I've looked up like 5 people I haven't talked to in ages, though I can't get any info on any of them, so that was unsucessful. Ahh! I need social interaction! Must...talk...over...coffee...see movie....anything... Wow I feel like a big loser. Anyway, please GOD call me cause damn, I have no friends anymore. And besides the lonliness that only goes away when I drown my sorrows in yet another Hastings movie rental, I also have this other thought that keeps irking me. It's kind of a I wish I could fix things once and for all in a certain situation, but I don't think I can this time. I think it's just unfixable. God, and if certain people only knew certain things....well, I might be able to fix it. It's irritating to be disliked for really no reason at all other than miscommunication. GAH. Bleh, I'm just talking out of my ass now. But on the plus side, I did graduate college. I didn't tell the blog about it yet, maybe I should. Basically, it was 4 days of family, friends, and food. Kevin and Ali are troopers; they put up with the family like 24 hours a day. The actual ceremony was boring, and our keynote speaker (the gov) decided to make her speech a campaign speech so that was fun. But we the micros made the ceremony awesome by wearing our cutely decorated hats and laughing and tearing up over stupid stuff. The most precious thing was looking up and seeing my grandfather use a hankie to wipe a tear from his eye....gotta love that. What else...well, Saturday night was the big fancy dinner...holy hell, was it good. I broke every rule in my diet and ate and drank myself silly (and veeeerrrrryyyy teary). My Dad gave a fun and lovely speech that addressed everyone at the table (cept Kev, who just seemed pretty dazed and confused the whole time). I got LOTS of presents, including a cash total of ~$1600, chocolates, a bath set, a hotel room for a Durango trip, and a TRIP TO HAWAII, the where, when, and who my choice. Ah, graduation. Tis a beautiful thing.
So yeah it was good times. Drove back to ABQ with ma tante (my aunt) who talked my ear off so I didn't have to bawl and listen to sad music (which was the original plan). Good times.
And now, I'm here...sitting...
Fuck it. I'll go start another movie.


Happy Birthday Kev~